Good Night

It was a good night.

Saw some great art,

Hung out with great people,

Met new great people,

Arranged to hang out with great people again,

Caught up with some old friends,

Finally felt connected and recharged after weeks of nothing but work,

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I came a little closer to knowing what I want and understanding where I'm heading. I know what I'm doing in the short run thanks to hanging back from an after-after party and brainstorming with the old friend. In one sentence I said "I'm tired of nothing being constant and I want to settle" and then 10 minutes later "but i want to take care of my wanderlust and see different places to live."

So at first it felt like a contradiction but there you have it - the short term is to work the shit out of my current job and see where the packages take me and the long term is to help figure out where to land based on what I see along the way. And the next two months will be me prepping everything and disciplining myself to ensure that the time before and the time during this experience won't be wasted. I want to come out of this physically and mentally stronger. It's my choice whether or not I flounder or grow. I am choosing to become stronger from all of this.

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and I finished the night with a long run for work (still on the run technically, but at least it's something)

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On funny a side note, I have a messed up drivers side power window. It must have been the exhaustion from not sleeping tonight. The world missed crazy guy driving his car on the "WAKE UP" bumps. This was followed by then pulling into two rest stops and driving up on the snow banks, in an effort to make the loose connection in the power window's wiring connect. I was literally doing donuts and looking for ways to shake my car. I kicked the thing, hit the thing, took a screwdriver to it and slammed the door multiple times. Finally, I fonzarellied the thing at an angle I hadn't tried before (slammed my hand directly onto all of the switches) and the window rolled up - 9 degrees outside and on the thruway and I felt like I was driving a snow cone until that moment. I will never roll this window down again unless it's fixed....on purpose.
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